
My name is Tenille Kay Ellie (nee Koeberg). I was born and raised in a beautiful city called Port Elizabeth, South Africa to two phenomenal parents and the middle child of three daughters. I am married and blessed with the most amazing little boy who literally is my everything – these two men truly are part of my motivation and inspiration. I have always been a lover of the arts and fell madly in love with dancing at the age of 5, which became a very intimate passion of mine – whether it was dancing in the classroom or performing on stage, that was my solace! That, and going to church as a kid.
For my entire life, deep down I knew that all I ever wanted was THE FREEDOM TO BE ME, for me! As a teenager in the 1990’s, being bombarded by the stereotypical expectations and pressure from society, my environment or culture, I didn’t know how to truly honor myself and follow my deepest desires without feeling like I was disappointing everyone else. I believed that I needed approval to be OK in life, to be happy or to express myself. So I went on playing it safe, conforming to the norm instead of pursuing my own dream as a dancer.
My health began to spiral out of balance. From the age of 20 to 22, during my tertiary education, I went through an eating disorder which was quite scary to say the least. I didn’t know how to unpack and deal with the issues that led to my eating disorder. So instead I silenced the voice that was trying to get my attention by squeezing into a role that didn’t serve me -putting up a front to protect my unexpressed and unspoken self. It was easier to conceal my truth by blending in at the time.
At age 30 going on 31, I had a bittersweet uncovering – I was both pregnant and diagnosed with ALS. When I finally came to terms with my reality at that time, I realised that I couldn’t run from myself anymore. My inner being went something like this “there’s no way you’re following the road of other people’s perceptions or dr’s negative suggestions any longer”. It was as if I was automatically directed to follow the road less travelled by, and that has made all the difference – giving myself permission to say YES to life and live my quest, finding my voice, finding my rhythm and recognizing the genius within me even when there’s doubt.
During those 10 years, I’ve studied hard and worked harder in jobs that didn’t serve me. It always felt like such a struggle because 1. I wasn’t happy 2. It wasn’t in alignment with what I truly wanted.
No matter how tough it gets at times, I keep focused on my God given vision as I walk in faith whilst facing the daily challenges of this current dis-ease.
As I go deeper throughout my blogs, you’ll discover more of me – the modalities I have and currently am using to change my mindset and heartset, my belief system, going within and asking fundamental questions to get back to the true essence of my most beautiful self.
“No one will believe in our ability to do great things until we first believe in our greatness and then put in the sincere and rigorous effort to realize it. Define yourself for yourself”
Love and light
TK ️♡