How do we know who we are unless we’re challenged in some way. That’s the Divine initiating us into greatness, I believe.
There comes a time in life when you sit in stillness and listen to the whispers of the Universe, and then there comes a time when the whisper turn into a loud thump.. either way, it will persist until it gets your attention if you choose to ignore the whisper. Throughout this journey called life, I found that we will be tested until we get to the point where we realise that All is well, All is God and All is You! In my experience, I have been tested to measure my faith.. tested to come to know my
own strength.. tested to come to accept, love, value and honor myself without the validation and opinion of others.
No one wants to be inconvenienced, right? No one wants their life disrupted, right? Here’s what I’ve come to realise.. When I had no way out, when I was brought to my knees – face down, I asked for a deeper meaning why my life was brought to a “stand-still”. Little did I know, uncovering that would cost me and those around me a lil something! Well, maybe a whole lotta somethings.
I’m talking about disruption and inconvenience like you’re trying to work your way through a slippery maze with wrecking balls coming at you. But I was willing to be bodacious enough to go there.
Working my way through the maze, I picked up breadcrumbs along the way which served as energy to keep going and to:
• Accept.
Learning to accept ALL of me and not judge myself or try to change for the sake
of others. Learning to accept that all is in divine order.. learning to accept that life is
beautiful amidst diversity.. learning to accept the darkness, cos without it I would not
know what light feels like.. learning to accept that challenges show up to bring me closer to who I am. Acceptance and practicing self love has been an integral part of my journey.
I find this to be an ongoing honor to myself to allow myself to feel empowered within
myself and to feel worthy to even have a dream when I was told by seemingly educated beings and reminded by naysayers that my life according to them, was over. The more I practice heart coherence, the more I become impervious to every thing that’s not for my highest good. This practice can be very tedious at first but once you find your own rhythm, you’ll sing a different tune when you pass a mirror!
• Trust.
I’m a stubborn-ass, strong-willed Taurus goddess who does everything to
perfection – that includes every facet of my existence. So to truly trust and surrender
ALL to a higher calling and not controlling the outcome was incredibly hard at first but guess what, that fierce soul looking back at me in the mirror is creating her own rhythm.
A rhythm that flows with more ease and less contraction. Trusting the flow of life for me means letting go of my preconceived views on what my life should be like and allow the Presence that’s never in absence to re-present itself fully within me, as me and through me. It’s not easy getting out of the way all the time though and believe me, I don’t always feel like doing the work but then after that inner conflict, I get a nudge from the universe saying “hey, something greater awaits you” and I get back to it. I’ve learned to accept these reset moments too – It is all ok! It’s OK to trust myself, it is OK to trust life.
• Undo all the “nots”.
Have you ever been told that you’re not good enough? That you’re not worthy? You’re not that special? In fact, some might even call you dumb and pathetic. Oh and my favorite, you don’t have what it takes? Well now, here’s what I know for sure.. every time I make contact with the Presence, I’m reminded of the truth of who and whose I am and THAT, is enough. THAT is true empowerment. And then all the “nots” that we lodge in our gut, will over time, dissipate. It stings real bad when we’re in the midst of it though but I’ve learned, the hard way, all it requires is to pivot the other way. In other words, practice taking my attention away from it.
• Connect and Love.
It’s been said that dis-connection = dis-ease and love heals. I find
myself in the midst of this realization at the moment – truly feeling that sense of re-
connection which brings with it all those yummy emotions of wellbeing. A sense of
knowingness that it’s safe to reconnect and love ME authentically. That it’s OK to let go of the bs lies we seem to take on as beliefs. The “dark nights of the soul” moments
I am experiencing can be quite treacherous if you don’t apply conscious awareness, but it’s evidence that I’m overcoming some aspect of myself and creating space to connect and love more.
I didn’t realize how disconnected from myself, my purpose and life I’ve been and just
how separated from divine love I allowed myself to drift until my higher self woke me up to steer me in the direction that I am supposed to go. Connecting to a higher love and trusting the unknown is what got me to know myself and reclaim my power in its fullness.
So who am I?
In short, I AM FREE TO BE ME !
And THAT is OK!
PS.. You become what YOU believe, NOT what others believe is true for you. Breathe and remember who YOU are.
With so much love
TK ♡