I have been studying Dr Joe Dispenza’s work for the past two and a half years. Dr Joe is a neuroscientist, researcher, author, lecturer, and modern-day mystic who teaches his model around the world with SO much love and compassion – that, I can attest to!
I used to get sick a lot and be hospitalized all the time. A week before Christmas 2017 until this very day, was the last time I’d been hospitalized. I had a stubborn cold and stubborn me don’t necessarily enjoy Dr visits. I went to Dr anyway because my natural homemade remedies took longer than usual to heal me and I could sense everyone’s concern around me. The next day I became volatily ill as the prescribed antibiotics did not agree with me and therefore, hospitalized. As I was lying in that hospital bed, watching the liquid of the drip flow into my veins, I remember thinking “has my life succumbed to hospitalizations, surely there has to be more to my life than this”. I continued reading “breaking the habit of being yourself” by Dr Joe Dispenza and doing my meditations. Numerous Dr’s came to me to do all sorts of blood tests for about 3 consecutive days without disclosing too much information and trying to be discreet about displaying too much concern, I was too scared to ask. Every waking moment I would be in prayer and meditation. At the end of day 4, the Specialist Physician told me in a very surprised and happy tone that my results were normal! I knew then, something shifted within me. New Years Eve 2017, I signed up for Dr Joe’s online progressive and intensive course. A typical week in my life during 2018, from a healing perspective, entailed :
Prayer and meditation
Physical and Hydrotherapy
Energy therapy
Maintaining a balanced diet
Kundalini yoga
Deepening my knowledge of the mystic from various online communities and courses
In March 2019, I placed my name on a waiting list for the “Dr Joe Dispenza week long advanced retreat in Australia, 26 April – 2 May” as I had already missed the registration and was already sold out. Six weeks before the event I got a spot! My beautiful baby sister, Athena, accompanied me on this liberating journey which not only transformed our lives but also strengthened our bond. Arriving safely at our destination in the early hours of the morning of the retreat, was extremely exciting but first needed proper rest as we’ve just embarked on a really long journey.
Later that day was registration time – I could barely contain myself knowing that in just a few short moments I was actually going to meet Dr Joe in the flesh! Everyone were buzzing with infectious excitement. I’ve met with my amazing team leader, Sally, and volunteers, Kelly and Travis who sincerely went above and beyond to ensure that I was okay at all times.. not to mention my phenomenal team members and fellow participants. Entering the room where lives were about to change and being part of 1300 amazing participants was all very surreal to say the least.. everyone dancing, meeting and greeting each other while locating our respective teams – thus began our “Metamorphosis – the great change within”. At the start of each glorious day, before entering the room, we would choose a significant token which to me set the tone for my day.
Day 1, I pulled “beautiful” out of the bag and I was like ‘yeah right, I don’t feel this at all!!’ I had absolutely no expectations but to be fully present in that moment and allow whatever is for me, to permeate my entire being. I became so fully engrossed with what Dr Joe was saying during that first lecture, for a moment it felt like I was the only one in the room. Day 2, I pulled out “mystical” which I was more optimistic about. As the day progressed with a series of meditations and lectures to understand the science behind what we’re doing, interacting with one another.. giving and receiving love, I started to feel less separate from the Divine as I entered the mystical. Day 3, “observer” which made me very curious. As I gained more knowledge, I could assign more meaning to my meditations and in fact go deeper. The deeper I connected, the more I could let go of the old self.. the old habits, thoughts, beliefs, behavior and perceptions. Throughout the day, I received insights to ‘just observe’. That day I regained my confidence I had lost years ago. I released so much of the old conditioning that I never even realized I had become accustomed to. At 6am the next day, 1300 participants gathered on the beach to do a walking meditation – I got up out of my wheelchair on the beach, changed my energy and trusted! I started walking unsupported for a good couple of steps on uneven ground which was HUGE for me.. huge because 1. Standing eyes closed on my own was a challenge previously and I did it effortlessly that morning and 2. With legs shaking and my analytical mind going crazy, and even though I had amazing Athena and Travis around me incase I lost my balance, I was determined to get up each time in the attempt to regain my motor function, one step at a
time. (from being a fit, well-toned ballerina to regaining mobility takes a huge amount of self-love and acceptance to say the least)
As I was lying on the beach after the meditation, Dr Joe came by and knelt down beside me.. he placed one hand on my head and one hand on my heart and kissed both “bruises” like a loving parent would their hurt child. As he walked away, tears started rolling down my face.. I remember feeling a rush of pure love and gratitude within my heart as I got a deep sense of how absolutely blessed I am, not only for being a part of a bigger circle of life in that moment but blessed and grateful for my entire life, with all the ups and downs! I literally felt “when you love life, life loves you right back”.
As I made my way back to my wheelchair, people gathered around to cheer me on, not realising that by me showing up for myself not only impacted them on a personal level but also how all their love reflected back and impacted me (synchronicity). I SOAKED UP ALLLL THAT LOVE with every step I took! When a fellow participant came up to me, held my hand and told me teary eyed how beautiful I am.. I broke into an uncontrollable cry because finally for the first time in years I actually felt it. I felt that beauty effortlessly within me that I couldn’t tap into on the first day and it felt liberating! (synchronicity). Just when I thought my heart couldn’t possibly handle more.. after another powerful meditation later that day, I locked eyes with a beautiful participant infront of me and without saying a word, we both cried gentle tears as my heart opened like a majestic flower and all I could see and feel was divine love within me and looking back at me. It was absolutely beautiful and so gentle (synchronicity).. These synchronicities I believe expanded my awareness and defined Divinity on a much deeper level. My day truly was “boundless”.
Part 2 to follow.
With so much love and light
TK ♡
PS.. Vulnerability is measured by the amount of courage to show up and be seen without knowing the outcome.